My work examines how the male gaze shapes internal self-surveillance and external judgment through media and cultural imagery. It embodies parts of myself that observe, endure, and resist both the internalization and projection of the male gaze. I translate private psychological experiences of femininity and gendered expectations, embracing the feminine grotesque as vulnerability and defiance. I question who looks, judges, and defines women’s bodies, and whether enough is ever enough. Through repetition, fragmentation, and distortion, I aim to disrupt dated ideologies. Clay grounds my process through touch, labor, excess, humor, and unruly resistance mechanisms, asserting presence and agency.